Surrounding myself with positivity

My friend, Tricia, and I were discussing today how we are going to be more positive.  We're going to stop getting caught up in the drama of life and stay out of it.  Then she joking reminded me that I stay pretty positive.  She never hears me talking negative (at work).  I told her it's because I'm a "peacemaker" who wants everyone to be happy.  We recently learned about this in Sunday School and even church... about not being a peaceFAKER, or a peaceBREAKER... and I think I've taken on those roles more than peacemakers.  My dad told me once that I was "just like my mom" (and seeing as I lost her at the age of 20, AND she was my best friend) I took that as a compliment.  But he meant that I was always "talking" to people and meddling with their business, and then being caught in the middle.  That's ultimately what a peacemaker has to do sometimes.  My sister-in-law even told me that recently SHE's been put in the middle of an uncomfortable situation... a peacemaker in the making.  What I didn't realize is that being positive, and staying away from negativity, and being a peacemaker isn't the easiest road to walk.  For example, last year I vowed to stay away from drama.. and succeeded.  But others thought I was a "suck-up" of sorts because I focused only on school and didn't want to hear the petty issues.  That wasn't necessarily the right way to stay away.  I should've told them up front what my heart was feeling.  I should've told them that I carried home with me every issue and insignificant detail that others shared.. and how I cared about what they thought more then I thought I did.  It made me bitter inside.  So I gave it all to my God (who is so much stronger than I am and had been waiting patiently for me to hand it all over).  And now I try to speak "God" all the time, and hope that this helps me become a better person.  I just heard thunder outside my window and it makes me realize that sometime we need rain to clean things out for us too.  It takes these situations of cloudiness and darkness, and yes rain, to help me see that I have nothing to worry about.  I just needed a little rain to bring out the sunshine in my life!